I stopped by the house very early on Saturday morning with the intention of taking pictures for the blog. We had a water removal team from the insurance company on-site, and the framers had been busy, working on the interior, so I knew there’d be much to see. The lot is beautiful at sunrise. There was a doe having her breakfast in the front yard. The new sunlight was filtering through the oaks, leaving mottled patterns on the driveway, which seemed to breathe as the breeze blew.
It feels peaceful when I visit the site alone. The air seems still and soft without the sounds of tradesmen’s hammers or children’s shrieks. This morning felt that way, although I was on my way to prepare for school and the move, so I acknowledged it, and moved on. I entered the house from the back, and as I walked through to the living room, I gasped. The transformation was beginning. It was starting to look like the house I have been drawing on paper for months. It gave me the same thrill that I’ve felt when first seeing a piece of pottery emerge from the kiln or a lovely cake from the oven. I work with a idea in mind, only to cast it on to nature, hoping I know nature well enough to have created something wonderful through it. This house is looking lot like the paper ‘idea’ on my nightstand.
I slowly lifted my camera to shoot, considering all of the possible angles. I flipped the camera’s power switch to ON, and got a “change the battery” signal. Right then, I heard a rustle in the front of the house. I looked out the front window to confirm the doe was still there. She was. I called out, “Hello?” No answer. It was still early and dark enough that this felt very odd.
Then I noticed it. A wren. It was caught in the house, against the dining room windows. One of the tradesmen left the hallway window open. She must have flown in accidentally. I moved to open the dining room door, hoping she would find her way out, but as I crossed the room, my movememt caused her to fly down the hall.
I followed her down the hall slowly, hoping my presence would move her back toward the open door. As I did, I began to see the house again, for what it was becoming, a home, my home. I walked down the hall, picturing what it will be like at bedtime. I stood in the children’s bedroom, and prayed a silent blessing.
The wren moved into the master bedroom. I followed.
My thoughts drifted to what life here will be like with Clint. We’ve faced so many changes in just a few years. What changes lie ahead? My mind grazed the idea of our mortality before those thoughts were quickly banished by more movement from the wren. She was in the rafters of the bathrooms now. I walked through the bathrooms, imagining the ‘too-good-to-be-true’ tub (more on that later!) I laughed when I thought about Caroline and Joel, sharing a bathroom in their teenage years…wondering what new hair styling tools and products will have been invented (or reinvented) by then.
But it was time to deal with the wren, and get on with my morning. I considered the wisest way to move her toward the door as I moved across the kitchen. There was a sheet left from the the rain clean-up, I could use that… I arrived in the dining room to find out that she was….gone…out the door.
So I sat on the door step and thought some more. I thought I knew what my work was that morning. Get the pictures and get out. Instead, I had a very different job. I was there to open the door for the wren. I was also there to be reminded that work produces something, even if you can’t see the something while you’re doing the work. I was there to see that there is an end to this moving. We have a home; a luxury in so many different ways. I needed to feel that luxury. I needed to be reminded of God’s goodness.